aid.--Ladies
abed.--My cock.--A frisky governess.--Cousin Fred.--Thoughts
on pudend.--A female pedler.--Baudy pictures.--A naked
baby.

My earliest recollections of things sexual are of what I think must have
occurred some time between my age of five, and eight years. I tell of
them just as I recollect them, without attempt to fill in what seems
probable.

She was I suppose my nursemaid. I recollect that she sometimes held my
little prick when I piddled, was it needful to do so? I don't know. She
attempted to pull my propuce back, when, and how often I know not. But I
am clear at seeing the prick tip show, of feeling pain, of yelling out,
of her soothing me, and of this occurring more than once. She comes to
my memory as a shortish, fattish young female and that she often felt my
prick.

One day, it must have been late in the afternoon, for the sun was low,
but shining--how strange I should recollect that so clearly--but I have
always recollected sunshine.--I had been walking out with her, toys had
been bought me, we were both carrying them, she stopped and talked to
some men, one caught hold of her and kissed her, I felt frightened, it
was near a coach stand, for hackney coaches were there, cabs were not
then known, she put what toys she had on to my hands, and went into a
house with a man. What house? I don't know. Probably a public-house, for
there was one not far from a coach stand, and not far from our house.
She came out and we went home.

Then I was in our house in a carpeted room with her; it could not have
been the nursery I know, sitting on the floor with my toys, so was she;
she played with me and the toys, we rolled over each other on the floor
in fun, I have a recollection of having done that with others, and of my
father and mother, being in that room at times with me playing.

She kissed me, got out my cock, and played with it, took one of my hands
and put it underneath her clothes. It felt rough there, that's all, she
moved my little hand violently there then she felt my cock and again
hurt me, I recollect seeing the red tip appear as she pulled down the
prepuce, and my crying out, and her quieting me.

Then of her being on her back, of my striding across or between her
legs, and her heaving me up and down, and my riding cock-horse and that
it was not the first time I had done so; then I fell flat on her, she
heaved me up and down and squeezed me till I cried. I scrambled of! of
he