lised. With
a throbbing heart, I pulled off petal after petal. Yes--no--O, God!
I thank Thee! I believe this prediction, it is holy!

I don't want to wait any longer. I shall die if I stay in this
furnace. It is too warm. Knock, and it shall be opened unto you. I
believe that, it is my consolation. We are going to Vienna Saturday,
but Mamma will stay. There is no pleasure without pain. That is a
great truth. So we shall start Saturday, I, my aunt, Dina, and
Paul.

July 29th, 1873.

During the journey the most open-hearted gaiety did not cease to
reign among us. O, how disagreeable Italy is on account of the
Italians, how dirty they are! We wanted to take a bath, and I did
not expect to have such luck in an Italian hotel in Genoa. I was
greatly surprised when they brought it to me.

At ten o'clock we at last reached our destination. We went to the
Grand Hotel. Everything is magnificent. I am pleased with it. I
wanted to take a bath. It is too late.

We all went to the Exposition and saw a part of Germany, England,
and France. The costumes were heavenly.

That is the way I shall dress later. How beautiful art can render
finery! I adore dress, because it will mate me pretty and give
pleasure to the man I love, and I shall be happy. Then dress bestows
Paradise upon earth.

The Russian pavilion is extremely beautiful, everything is fine. We
breakfasted at the Russian restaurant. It is neither restaurant nor
Russian. It is a sort of German beer-hall. The servants are dressed
in red, a perfect caricature. It isn't surprising that Russians
should be taken for Turks. I am having a good time to-day. The first
two it seemed as though I was in a lethargy. That happens to me
sometimes. It is over now. The Italian statues are very original.
There are some remarkable expressions of face.

Say what you like, our native land is always our native land.
Everything that is Russian in the pavilion is beautiful. I looked
eagerly. There were Russian names on the goods. My eyes filled with
tears.

At seven o'clock, we went to hear the band. There were a great many
people, the music was very captivating, thoroughly Viennese. When
this orchestra stopped, another began. All sorts of persons, members
of the imperial family, fashionable ladies, young dandies, a whirl
of gaiety.

The Viennese climate is delicious, not like Nice, which is burning
hot in summer.

At last! We are leaving! We are in the train. There is no time to
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