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any me, sir," I answered, "but he will shortly come." "Thank you, Stukely, thank you. I have good news for you. I can afford you time to recruit and be yourself again. The lads return home on Monday next; you shall have a month's holiday, and you shall spend it as you will--with us, or elsewhere. If your health will be improved by travelling, I shall be happy to provide you with the means. I cannot afford to lose your services. You must not get ill." "You are very kind, sir," I replied--"kinder than I deserve." "That is a matter of opinion, Stukely. I do not think so. You have served me faithfully and well. I consult my own interest in rewarding you and taking care of yours." "Yes, sir--but"-- "Well, never mind now. We will not argue on whose side the obligation lies. It is perhaps well that we should both of us think as we do. It is likely that we shall both perform our duty more strictly if we strike the balance against ourselves. Go and refresh yourself. You look tired and worn. Get a glass of wine, and cheer up. Have you seen Miss Fairman?" "It is concerning her, sir," I answered, trembling in every joint, "that I desire particularly to speak to you." "Good heaven!" exclaimed the incumbent, starting from his chair, "what do you mean? What is the matter? What has happened? Why do you tremble, Stukely, and look so ghastly pale? What has happened since the morning? What ails her? Go on. Speak. Tell me at once. My poor child--what of her?" "Calm yourself, I implore you, sir. Miss Fairman is quite well. Nothing has happened. Do not distress yourself. I have done very wrong to speak so indiscreetly. Pardon me, sir. I should have known better. She is well." Mr. Fairman paced the room in perturbation, and held his hand upon his heart to allay its heavy throbs. "This is very wrong," he said--"very impious. I have thought of nothing else this day--and this is the consequence. I have dwelt upon the probability of calamity, until I have persuaded myself of its actual presence--looked for woe, until I have created it. This is not the patience and resignation which I teach; for shame, for shame!--go to thy closet, worm--repent and pray." Mr. Fairman resumed his seat, and hid his face for a time in his hands. At length he spoke again. "Proceed, Stukely. I am calm now. The thoughts and fears in which it was most sinfull to indulge, and which accumulated in this most anxious breast, are dissipated. What
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