n a similar way.

"A little later, my mother being away from home, I shared my
father's bed and he took my penis in his hand and pulled my
foreskin back. I in return took hold of his and found that he had
an erection. I proceeded to rub him when he stopped me and told
me that I should not do so, that when I was a little older I
should love a woman to do it and that if I did not rub myself and
allow other boys to do so, I would enjoy myself much more. I am
quite certain that my father was inverted, as he frequently, if
sleeping with me, used to press my naked body against his and he
always had a strong erection. On one occasion he rubbed me until
I had a discharge and then, turning over on his back, made me
take his penis in my hand and rub him for a few minutes. I used
to jest frequently with my father, as from my seventeenth year my
penis was larger than his. I will return to my father a little
later. When I was 17 a college friend shared my bed, and when
undressing he said that he envied me my penis being so much
larger than his; after getting into bed, he asked me to turn on
my side and I found that he was attempting _pedicatio_. I was
astonished at his doing so when he informed me that next to a
woman this process gave most pleasure. However, nothing resulted
and this is the only experience of _pedicatio_ that I have ever
had.

"When I was 18 one evening a college chum introduced me to a
woman and she was the first I ever had connection with. We went
behind some rocks and she took hold of my penis and pressed it
into her body, lying against me.

"My father evidently suspected me when I came home, and a few
days afterward told me that it was very dangerous to have
anything to do with women, that I should wait until I was older,
that when a boy became a man he ought to have a woman
occasionally, and that if I ever had a nasty disease I should
promptly tell him so that I could be properly cured.

"At college I found several chums who were fond of sharing my bed
and indulging in mutual masturbation, pressing our bodies
together face to face until there was mutual discharge, but never
again anyone who tried anal connection.

"A short time afterward I was in Brussels and I paid my first
visit to a brothel, a place close to the Cathedral. I picked a
girl of about