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oised, always perfectly calm and self-possessed, rather
retiring in disposition, with gentle, dignified bearing.
She says she cannot care for men, but that all her life has been
"glorified and made beautiful by friendship with women," whom she
loves as a man loves women. Her character is, however, well
disciplined, and her friends are not aware of the nature of her
affections. She tries not to give all her love to one person, and
endeavors (as she herself expresses it) to use this "gift of
loving" as a stepping-stone to high mental and spiritual
attainments. She is described by one who has known her for
several years as "having a high nature, and instincts unerringly
toward high things."
HISTORY XXXV.--Miss B., artist, of German ancestry on the
paternal side. Among her brothers and sisters, one is of neurotic
temperament and another is inverted. She is herself healthy. She
has no repugnance to men, and would even like to try marriage, if
the union were not permanent, but she has seldom felt any sexual
attraction to a man. In one exceptional instance, early in life,
realizing that she was not adapted for heterosexual
relationships, she broke off the engagement she had formed. Much
later in life, she formed a more permanent relationship with a
man of congenial tastes.
She is attracted to women of various kinds, though she recognizes
that there are some women to whom only men are attracted. Many
years since she had a friend to whom she was very strongly
attached, but the physical manifestations do not appear to have
become pronounced. After that her thoughts were much occupied by
several women to whom she made advances, which were not
encouraged to pass beyond ordinary friendship. In one case,
however, she formed an intimate relationship with a girl somewhat
younger than herself, and a very feminine personality, who
accepted Miss B.'s ardent love with pleasure, but in a passive
manner, and did not consider that the relationship would stand in
the way of her marrying, though she would on no account tell her
husband. The relationship for the first time aroused Miss B.'s
latent sexual emotions. She found sexual satisfaction in kissing
and embracing her friend's body, but there appeared to be no
orgasm. The relationship made a considerable change in her, and
rendered h
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