the attraction he felt toward girls before the age of 12. Had his
sexual experiences subsequently proved normal, he doubts if those
before 12 could be held to give evidence of homosexuality, but
only of precocious nervous and sexual irritability, greatly
heightened and directed by the secret practices of the children
with whom he associated. He does not see why these experiences
should have given him a homosexual bent any more than a
heterosexual one.
The psychoanalysis recalled to M.O. that during the period of
early flirtation he had often kissed and embraced various girls,
but likewise he recalled having observed at the same time, with
some surprise, that no definitely sexual desire arose, though the
way was probably open to gratify it. Such interest as did exist
ceased wholly or almost so as the relation with Edmund developed.
There was no aversion from the company of girls and women,
however; the intellectual friendships were mainly with them,
while the emotional ones were with boys.
Very recently M.O. spent several days with Edmund, who has been
married for several years. With absolutely no sexual interest in
each other, they nevertheless found a great bond of love still
subsisting. Neither regrets anything of the past, but feels that
the final outcome of their earlier relation has been good.
Edmund's beauty is still pronounced, and is remarked by others.
In spite of his precocious sexuality, M.O. had from the very
first an extreme disgust for obscene stories, and for any
association of sexual things with filthy words and anecdotes.
Owing in part to this and in part to his temperamental
skepticism, he disbelieved what associates told him regarding
sexual emissions, only becoming convinced when he actually
experienced them; and the facts of reproduction he denied
indignantly until he read them in a medical work. Until he was
well over 25 the physical aversion from any thought of
reproduction was intense. He knows other, normal, young men who
have felt the same way, but he believes it would be prevented or
overcome by sex-education such as is now being introduced in
American schools.
Again, as to traces of feminism: Perhaps two years ago, all
impulse to give the love-bite disappeared suddenly. There has
been lately a marked increase of dramatic interest, a
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