likes to
be caressed by them. He is immensely vain of his physical beauty;
he shuns _pedicatio_ and does not much care for the sexual act,
but likes long hours of voluptuous communion during which his
lover admires him. He feels the beauty of boyhood. At the same
time he is much attracted by young girls.

He is decidedly feminine in his dress, manner of walking, love of
scents, ornaments, and fine things. His body is excessively
smooth and white, the hips and buttocks rounded. Genital organs
normal. His temperament is feminine, especially in vanity,
irritability, and petty preoccupations. He is much preoccupied
with his personal appearance and fond of admiration; on one
occasion he was photographed naked as Bacchus. He is physically
and morally courageous. He has a genius for poetry and
speculation, with a tendency to mysticism.

He feels the discord between his love for men and society, also
between it and his love for his wife. He regards it as, in part,
at least, hereditary and inborn in him.

HISTORY XXXII.--C.R., physician; age 38. Nationality, Irish, with
a Portuguese strain. "My mother came of an old Quaker family. I
was quite unaware of sexual differences until I was about 14, as
I was carefully kept separate from my sisters and, although from
time to time strange longings which I did not understand
possessed me, I was a virgin in thought and deed until that
period of life.

"When I was 14 a cousin some years older than myself came to stay
with us and shared my bed. To my surprise he took hold of my
penis and rubbed it for a time, when a most pleasant feeling
seized me and increased until a discharge came out of my organ;
he then asked me to do the same to him. We frequently repeated
the process during the following month; I was quite unaware of
any harm resulting.

"The same year I went to school, but none of my schoolmates for
some time even suggested such actions until a friend staying with
us for the holidays one day in the bathroom repeated the process
and pressed his penis between my thighs, when a similar discharge
took place. I shortly found out that several of my school friends
and male cousins had the same desires, and an elder brother of my
first introducer into sexuality repeatedly spent the night with
me, when we would amuse ourselves i