rs that he had an intense but
revolting interest in the sexual organs of animals, especially
horses. The males were much more interesting.

Gradually he began to develop, entirely from within, the ideal of
a male comrade,--a beautiful, emotional boy between whom and
himself there might exist a powerful romantic passion. He lay for
hours dreaming of this, and inventing thrilling situations.
Suddenly, at church, he became acquainted with the very youth,
Edmund, who seemed to satisfy all his longings. M.O. was then 161/2
and Edmund 15. A real wooing ensued, Edmund finally yielding to
the physical appeals of M.O. after several fits of misgiving. The
yielding was in the end complete, however. The two spent night
after night together, enjoying intercrural intercourse and
sometimes mutual masturbation. Their parents may have been
slightly uneasy at times, but the connection continued
uninterruptedly for a year and a half or more. In the meantime
M.O. occasionally had relations with other boys, but never
wavered in his real preference for Edmund. For girls he had no
sexual desire whatever, though he was much associated with them.

Then M.O. and Edmund went to college at different places, but
they met in vacations and wrote frequent and ardent love-letters.
Both had genuine attacks of love-sickness and of jealousy. As
M.O. looks back on this first love passion he can by no means
regret it. It doubtless had great formative influence.

After the first year at college, Edmund transferred to another
school farther away from M.O. and the opportunities for meeting
became rarer, but their affection was maintained and the
intercourse resumed whenever it was possible. Gradually, however,
Edmund became interested in women and finally married. M.O. also
formed relations repeatedly with college friends and occasionally
with others.

On the whole M.O. preferred boys a year or two younger than
himself, but as he grew older the age difference increased. At 30
he regarded himself as virtually "engaged" to a youth of 17, one
unusually mature, however, and much larger than himself.

M.O. is always unhappy unless his affections have fairly free
course. Life has been very disappointing to him in other
respects. His greatest joys have come to him in this way. If he
is able to consummate his pre