re very reasonable, I
became very reasonable with them.

It was surely a murder to bring me up ill, for I had a natural
disposition much inclined to good, and I loved good things.

We subsequently came to Paris, where my vanity increased. Nothing
was spared to bring me out. I paraded a vain beauty; I thirsted to
exhibit myself and to flaunt my pride. I wished to make myself loved
without loving anybody. I was sought for by many persons who seemed
good matches for me; but you, O my God, who would not consent to my
ruin, did not permit things to succeed.

My father discovered difficulties that you yourself made spring up
for my salvation. For if I had married those persons, I should have
been extremely exposed, and my vanity would have had opportunity for
displaying itself. There was a person who sought me in marriage for
some years, whom my father for family reasons had always refused.

His manners were a little distasteful to my vanity, yet the fear
they had I should leave the country, and the great wealth of this
gentleman, led my father, in spite of all his own objections and
those of my mother, to accept him for me. It was done without my
being told, on the vigil of Saint Francis de Sales, on the
Twenty-eighth of January, Sixteen Hundred Sixty-four, and they even
made me sign the articles of marriage without telling me what they
were.

Although I was well pleased to be married, because I imagined
thereby I should have full liberty, and that I should be delivered
from the ill-treatment of my mother, which doubtless I brought on
myself by want of docility, you, however, O my God, had quite other
views, and the state in which I found myself afterwards frustrated
my hopes, as I shall hereafter tell. Although I was well pleased to
be married, I nevertheless continued all the time of my engagement,
and even long after my marriage, in extreme confusion.

I did not see my betrothed till two or three days before the
marriage. I caused masses to be said all the time I was engaged, to
know your will, O my God, for I desired to do it at least in that.
Oh, goodness of my God, to suffer me at that time, and to permit me
to pray with as much boldness as if I had been one of your
friends!--I who had treated you as if your greatest enemy!

The joy at this marriage was universal in