what you have in your own mind, but I know
nothing would be a greater mistake than what you propose. The chances
are we should never come together again."
There was silence for a moment, broken only by a heavy sigh from
Viola.
"Won't you tell me everything you have in your own mind?" I said
persuasively. "I thought we never made mysteries with one another; it
seems to me you are acting just like a person in an old-fashioned
book. You can tell me anything, say anything you like, nothing will
alter my love for you, except deception--that might."
"And you seem to think separation might," returned Viola sadly.
"I don't think it's a question of separation altering my love for you,
but in separation sometimes things happen which prevent a reunion."
Viola was silent.
"Do tell me," I urged. "Tell me what you have in your mind. Why has
this cloud come up between us?"
"You see," Viola said very gently, "there are some things, if you tell
a man, he is obliged to say and do certain things in return. If you
take the matter in your own hands you can do better for him than he
can do for himself."
"It is something for me then?" I said smiling. "I am to gain by your
leaving me for a year?"
"Yes, I think so," she answered doubtfully. "But principally it is for
myself. I know there is a great risk in going away, but I think a
greater one if I stay."
I was silent, wondering what it could possibly be that she would not
tell me. Although she said she had formed the idea before Suzee's
letter came, I kept returning to that in my thoughts as the main
reason that must be influencing her.
I waited, hoping if I did not press her she would perhaps begin to
confide in me of her own accord. But she sat quite silent, looking
intensely miserable and staring out into space before her. I felt a
vague sense of fear and anxiety growing up in me.
"Dearest, do tell me what is the matter," I said, drawing her close up
to me and kissing her white lips.
"Don't let us make ourselves miserable for nothing, like stupid people
one reads about. Life has everything in it for us. Let us be happy in
it and enjoy it."
Viola burst into a storm of tears against my neck and sobbed in a
heart-breaking way for some minutes.
"Is it that you have ceased to love me, that you feel your own passion
is over?" I asked gently.
"No, certainly not that."
"Is it that you think I want to, or ought to be free from you?"
"No, not that."
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