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me. It is too sudden, your returning like this. You must give me time. I do not know what I believe. Oh, dear God, help me." "Isabel, promise! promise! Before Christmas! I thought it was all to be so happy, when I came in through the garden just now. My mother will hardly speak to me; and I came to you, Isabel, as I always did; I felt so sure you would be good to me; and tell me that you would always love me, now that I had given up my religion for love of you. And now----" and Hubert's voice ended in a sob. Her heart seemed rent across, and she drew a sobbing sigh. Hubert heard it, and caught at her hands again as he knelt. "Isabel, promise, promise." Then there came that gust of purpose into her heart again; she made a determined effort and stood up; and Hubert rose and stood opposite her. "You must not ask me," she said, bravely. "It would be wicked to decide yet. I cannot see anything clearly. I do not know what I believe, nor where I stand. You must give me time." There was a dead silence. His face was so much in shadow that she could not tell what he was thinking. He was standing perfectly still. "Then that is all the answer you will give me?" he said, in a perfectly even voice. Isabel bowed her head. "Then--then I wish you good-night, Mistress Norris," and he bowed to her, caught up his cap and went out. She could not believe it for a moment, and caught her breath to cry out after him as the door closed; but she heard his step on the stone pavement outside, the crunch of the gravel, and he was gone. Then she went and leaned her head against the curved mantelshelf and stared into the logs that his hands had piled together. This, then, she thought, was the work of religion; the end of all her aspirations and efforts, that God should mock them by bringing love into their life, and then when they caught at it and thanked him for it, it was whisked away again, and left their hands empty. Was this the Father of Love in whom she had been taught to believe, who treated His children like this? And so the bitter thoughts went on; and yet she knew in her heart that she was powerless; that she could not go to the door and call Hubert and promise what he asked. A great Force had laid hold of her, it might be benevolent or not--at this moment she thought not--but it was irresistible; and she must bow her head and obey. And even as she thought that, the door opened again, and there was Hubert. He came
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