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ow," said Beaton, in pensive discouragement. He was sensible of being manipulated, operated, but he was helpless to escape from the performer or to fathom her motives. His pensiveness passed into gloom, and was degenerating into sulky resentment when he went away, after several failures to get back to the old ground he had held in relation to Alma. He retrieved something of it with Mrs. Leighton; but Alma glittered upon him to the last with a keen impenetrable candor, a child-like singleness of glance, covering unfathomable reserve. "Well, Alma," said her mother, when the door had closed upon him. "Well, mother." Then, after a moment, she said, with a rush: "Did you think I was going to let him suppose we were piqued at his not coming? Did you suppose I was going to let him patronize us, or think that we were in the least dependent on his favor or friendship?" Her mother did not attempt to answer her. She merely said, "I shouldn't think he would come any more." "Well, we have got on so far without him; perhaps we can live through the rest of the winter." "I couldn't help feeling sorry for him. He was quite stupefied. I could see that he didn't know what to make of you." "He's not required to make anything of me," said Alma. "Do you think he really believed you had forgotten all those things?" "Impossible to say, mamma." "Well, I don't think it was quite right, Alma." "I'll leave him to you the next time. Miss Woodburn said you were freezing him to death when I came down." "That was quite different. But, there won't be any next time, I'm afraid," sighed Mrs. Leighton. Beaton went home feeling sure there would not. He tried to read when he got to his room; but Alma's looks, tones, gestures, whirred through and through the woof of the story like shuttles; he could not keep them out, and he fell asleep at last, not because he forgot them, but because he forgave them. He was able to say to himself that he had been justly cut off from kindness which he knew how to value in losing it. He did not expect ever to right himself in Alma's esteem, but he hoped some day to let her know that he had understood. It seemed to him that it would be a good thing if she should find it out after his death. He imagined her being touched by it under those circumstances. VI. In the morning it seemed to Beaton that he had done himself injustice. When he uncovered his Judas and looked at it, he could not believe
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