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teaching, with marked success, among the British population of
Melbourne.
While in Cairo, she passed through a deep and agonizing religious
experience, which she described in the following letter to Mrs. Whiting,
and the result of which was a new life in Christ.
Cairo, Egypt, _July 9, 1868_.
"I think I shall always remember my stay in Cairo with much
pleasure, but the greatest advantage of this year is the
opportunity I had of stopping to think of the interests of a never
dying soul, of a neglected Saviour, an offended God. Yes, I have
reflected, struggled, oh, how hard, and thanks to an ever merciful
God, I trust I have been led by the Holy Spirit to see and feel my
great sin, and casting myself at the feet of Jesus, stayed there
with my sinful heart till a loving Saviour just came and took it
up. Oh, how grieved was His tender heart when He saw how defiled it
was with sin and wickedness, but He said, fear not, my blood will
cleanse it and make it pure; then how He pleaded my case before His
Father, setting forth His boundless love and infinite righteousness
as a reason why He wished to be accepted. Yes, dear Mrs. Whiting, I
hope I can now say, Thy God is my God, and the blessed Saviour you
have loved so long is now very precious to me. The past winter has
been a solemn time with me. Many hard struggles have I had, much
fear that I might have forever grieved God's Holy Spirit, and for
a long time it all seemed so dark, there seemed no hope for me who
had been so long living away from the Saviour, but in great fear
and despair I just rushed and cast myself at His feet, and asked
Him to let me perish there if I must perish; there was nothing else
for me to do, and I felt such happiness in just leaving myself in
His care. How wonderful is His love! But what a life of constant
prayer and watching is that of a Christian! in the first place to
aim at close walking with God, leaving Him to order our steps for
us, and trusting Him so to order our way as to best enable us to
walk closely with Him. It has been a most comforting thought when I
find it difficult to live right and feel my utter weakness, that
Jesus is each day saying to His Father for me, "I pray not she
should be taken out of the world, but that she should be _kept from
the evil_," and to live up to
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