"I can't." (Why
not?) "The family tree is broken, the Cardinal." (What
about him?) "Nothing." (Retrospectively she said later she
thought her brother was a cardinal.)
_December 8:_ When her mother visited her she said "It is
about time you come--I thought you were dead." Has walked
down the hall "looking" for her dead cousin. When asked if
she wanted to see her brother, said, "Ain't he dead?"
_December 12:_ Cries out in an affectless tone like a
huckster, "Father MacN., take me to Heaven," repeating this
over and over.
_December 15:_ Quiet as a rule, then for a time at the
door, pulling at it and with whining voice but affectlessly
saying "Give me the key--I want to go to the river--you
can't keep me from Heaven--it is either Heaven or the
river, give me the keys, give me the keys, open the door,"
"The niggers are taking possession." To the physician to
whom she had claimed to be married, often repeats "You
don't belong to me, I don't belong to you." (What about the
niggers?) "A band of niggers, that is all they are." (Are
the nurses niggers?) "That is all they are." Asked about
her people, she says "They are in Heaven." (Where are you?)
"I am in Heaven" (without change of expression). Again,
when asked where her people are, says "At home." Then she
went willingly back to bed and was quiet. In the afternoon
she again went to the door and tried to get out. When
questioned, she said "I don't want to be an animal,"
"Everybody is making an animal of me" (pointing to an
animal picture). Then again, while trying the door, repeats
in the same affectless manner that she wants to go "to the
river," "to the bottom of the river," "to Heaven to see my
mother." This last was said in a whining tone, with some
tears. She kept turning the knob, tried to get the keys,
and struggled impulsively when prevented.
_December 23:_ Though quiet on the whole, when a visitor
came yesterday, she ran after this woman saying "I want my
generations," and clung to her, and to-day at intervals
keeps talking about wanting to see her generations but is
often quiet. (Retrospectively she said she wanted to see
all her ancestors from the beginning of time.)
_December 27:_ Of late often talks affectlessly abo
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