pulsiveness. Almost her only utterances had to
do with death. She said she wanted to die, wanted to drop
dead, did not want to live, wanted to kill herself, that
she did not eat because she wanted to die. When once she
was found tossing about and was asked whether she worried,
she said "I know I am going to die." (You mean you will be
killed?) "I don't care."
There were a few episodes which still have to be mentioned.
Quite early in the course of the stupor, when she was
restless, scratching herself and moaning, she once spoke
quite freely. She said "Give me that fellow (Harry), I
don't care, I can't help it. I must have him, even if it
costs me my life." "I would feel happy if I could get him.
O God, I love him--I will never get him even if I drop
dead, I know I won't get him, the darling" (cries). (What
if you did get him?) "I know I would lose him again." Then
with shame she claimed she had had sexual relations with
him (when well, denied). At the same interview, when the
doctor sneezed, she said "Gesundheit." In June, 1914, she
was seen smiling at times. But the first was the only
episode when she spoke more freely, and the two occasions
the only ones when she showed a frank affect.
The improvement commenced in April, 1915. Although still
very inactive, she sometimes began to laugh and sing and
talk a little to other patients. She also answered a few
questions on April 22, 1915. Thus, when asked whether she
wanted to go home, she said "No, I want to stay here." (Do
you like it here?) "Yes" (smiles), "I can't get no other
place; I have got to like it here." She smiled freely. To
orientation questions, she knew the place, month, but not
the year.
She continued inactive and above all diffident, but
improved steadily and, when examined by the writer on
November 15, she made a very natural impression and gave
the retrospective account of the onset embodied in the
history. She was quite frank, thanked the doctor for the
interest he took in her case, and said for example, "You
know I never thought I would get well. I quite gave up--I
am very glad I am well now."
When questioned about her stay here, the patient evidently
remembered much. She was able to say which wards she had
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