sician who saw most of her in these first two and a half
months, she said that his voice seemed familiar, and she
asked him whether he had tube-fed her (she had been
tube-fed by him many times), but she again said, "No, you
are not the one," and described as the man who had fed her
the one who did it on the second ward where she was for a
year. But she knew that she had been sent to the second
ward, because she constantly tried to injure herself. These
injuries she recalled but was unable to say why she
attempted them, "I suppose I didn't know what I was doing."
She claimed she heard voices and had "all sorts" of
imaginations, but could not be gotten to tell about them.
When it was difficult for her to give an answer, she was
apt to keep silent and then could be prodded without much
success.
In _October_, 1915, there was further improvement, inasmuch
as she began to converse some with other patients, played
the piano and seemed able to carry a piece through. She was
put in the occupation class and did quite well. At the
interview with the physician she was still apt to laugh
boisterously at slight provocation. Even now she had great
difficulty in describing her condition and at the
examination was often still quite vague. Thus, when asked
how she felt, she said, "I do know I feel
ridiculous--sometimes I feel kind of angry--I don't
know--they say I am crazy but I am not, but I am hungry--I
don't know whether I am or not, I don't know what I can do
well," etc. This is quite characteristic. When asked
whether she was worried, she said: "I don't know, am I
worried?--yes, a little sometimes, I am to-day--I am so
untidy--don't know what is the matter with me." Again:
"Sometimes I lose my speech--I can't say what I feel, I
don't know what it was." Later, half to herself: "I don't
know what is the matter with me--I don't care anyway."
In _December_, 1915, there was still further improvement,
and on the ward and in superficial conversation she made,
towards the end of the month, in many ways a natural
impression, though the laughter before described was still
somewhat in evidence. It usually came not without occasion,
but was, as a rule, quite out of proportion to the
stimulus. She agai
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