he spoke again of the "ship" and about
going "down, down," but also said that on one occasion she
heard beautiful music, was waiting for the last trumpet and
was afraid to move. Moreover, she had some ideas referring
to the actual situation which were akin to those in the
more marked stupor period. Although she admitted she was
better, she said on December 8 that she still had queer
ideas at times, "I sometimes think the doctor is Uncle Jim"
(long dead). She also spoke of other patients looking like
dead relatives, and added, "Are all the spirits that are
dead over here?" "We never die here, the spirits are here."
But after that date no such ideas recurred, in fact this
whole period seems to have been remarkably barren of
delusions. Exceptionally isolated ones were noted. Thus, on
January 28 it is mentioned that she stated she sometimes
felt so lonely, and as though people were against her; and
on February 13 she said she felt as though the chair knew
what she was talking about. It is also mentioned in January
that she wept at times, but this seems not to have been a
leading feature at all. In March, when asked why she was
not more active and cheerful, her lips began to quiver and
she said, "Oh, I thought my children would be cut up in
Bellevue." "I don't know why I feel that way about them."
She sometimes cried when her friends left her.

5. Then followed a week of a rather faultfinding,
self-assertive state, during which she demanded to be
allowed to go home, saying indignantly that she was not a
wicked woman, had done nothing to be kept a prisoner here;
she wanted justice because another patient had called her
crazy. But in this period also she said that after the
robbery (at home) she felt afraid that her honor would be
taken away. When told that her husband had been with her,
she said "Yes, but I was afraid they would get into a
fight." (You mean you were afraid the other man would kill
him?) "No, he is not dead." She further talked of a
disagreement she had at that time with her husband, and
that she felt then like running away and leading a bad
life, but thought of the children. With tears she added: "I
would not do anything that is wrong. I have my children to
live for." Quite re