sense. Ours drags us by the heart and brain, by the
very soul, into the thick of it. _The_ unpardonable sin is separating
literature from life. You know that as well as I do."
She did. She worked divinely, shaping unashamed the bodies and the souls
of men. There was nothing in contemporary literature to compare with the
serene, inspired audacity of Jane Holland. Her genius seemed to have
kept the transcendent innocence of the days before creation.
Tanqueray continued in his theme. Talking like this allayed his
excitement.
"We're bound," he said, "to get mixed up with people. They're the stuff
we work in. It's almost impossible to keep sinless and detached. We're
being tempted all the time. People--people--people--we can't have enough
of 'em; we can't keep off 'em. The thing is--to keep 'em off us. And
Jane, I _know_--they're getting at you."
She did not deny it. They were.
"And you haven't the--the nerve to stand up against it."
"I have stood up against it."
"You have. So have I. When we were both poor."
"You want me to be poor?"
"I don't want you to be a howling pauper like me, but, well, just
pleasantly short of cash. There's nothing like that for keeping you out
of it."
"You want me to be thoroughly uncomfortable? Deprived of everything that
makes life amusing?"
"Thoroughly uncomfortable. Deprived of everything that stands in the way
of your genius."
She felt a sudden pang of jealousy, a hatred of her genius, this thing
that had been tacked on to her. He cared for it and could be tender to
it, but not to her.
"You're a cruel beast," she said, smiling through her pain.
"My cruelty and my beastliness are nothing to the beastliness and the
cruelty of art. The Lord our God is a consuming fire. You must be
prepared to be burnt."
"It's all very well for you, George. I don't like being burnt."
That roused him; it stirred the devil in him.
"Do you suppose _I_ like it? Why, you--you don't know what burning _is_.
It means standing by, on fire with thirst, and seeing other people drink
themselves drunk."
"You don't want to be drunk, George. Any more than I do."
"I do not, thank God. But it would be all the same if I did. I can't get
a single thing I do want."
"Can't you? I should have thought you could have got most things you
really wanted."
"I could if I were a grocer or a draper. Why, a hair-dresser has more
mastery of the means of life."
He was telling her, she knew, that
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