r know the remorse I suffered after one of those outbursts. At
night I would pour out my soul in a plea for forgiveness. I was sure God
forgave me and started next day with determination to conquer. I often
prayed about examinations which were very hard for me. Once or twice I
prayed that mother would see that I needed a different kind of dress
from the one she planned. I am sure that I felt God was a sympathetic
friend and prayer to me was natural."
Here was a girl who because of the cultivation in the home turned
simply and naturally to God to supply her need. She is today a pure,
healthy, natural young woman who has seemingly triumphed over her
propensity to "get mad." Another girl says:
"I have prayed ever since I remember. We always had family prayers at
home and in church our pastor always prayed for us children. I used to
pray when I was afraid, which I often was at night when the wind blew,
and I felt comforted. My little sister was not strong and for years I
prayed every night that God would let us keep her. Sometimes when I had
been scolded in school for whispering, in which I was a great offender,
I prayed in shame and remorse for forgiveness. As I grew older I still
prayed when afraid and repentant and often on a beautiful day, or in the
canoe at sunset when I could not say all I felt. When I was about
eighteen I began to pray for the missionaries and people who were poor
and sick. I do not remember any definite instruction about prayer. It
seemed natural to me. I often felt doubts when the answer didn't come
but had a very definite feeling that the trouble must be with me."
This girl by environment and unconscious training has also found
speaking with God a natural thing. There are so many papers which
express through different personalities the same general facts which
cannot fail to impress one who reads, with the power of the cultivation
of prayer.
But in the papers and from the interviews of girls in the early twenties
whose only definite relation with the church is the Sunday-school class,
who come from non-Christian homes, whose parents almost never enter a
church a different note sounds.
One says:
"I am trying to be a Christian. I have not joined the church. I cannot
say that I pray very regularly but I have tried to. It does not seem to
help me much. The minister prayed for me the day my brother died and it
helped. Sometimes I read in a book of prayers."
And another writes:
"I do n
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