em. Yet by and by
when they come in company again, which they like, or be pleased, _suam
sententiam rursus damnant, et vitae solatia delectantur_, as Octavius
Horatianus observes, _lib. 2. cap. 5_, they condemn their former mislike,
and are well pleased to live. And so they continue, till with some fresh
discontent they be molested again, and then they are weary of their lives,
weary of all, they will die, and show rather a necessity to live, than a
desire. Claudius the emperor, as [2506] Sueton describes him, had a spice
of this disease, for when he was tormented with the pain of his stomach, he
had a conceit to make away himself. Julius Caesar Claudinus, _consil. 84._
had a Polonian to his patient, so affected, that through [2507]fear and
sorrow, with which he was still disquieted, hated his own life, wished for
death every moment, and to be freed of his misery. Mercurialis another, and
another that was often minded to despatch himself, and so continued for
many years.

_Suspicion, Jealousy._] Suspicion, and jealousy, are general symptoms: they
are commonly distrustful, apt to mistake, and amplify, _facile
irascibiles_, [2508]testy, pettish, peevish, and ready to snarl upon every
[2509]small occasion, _cum amicissimis_, and without a cause, _datum vel
non datum_, it will be _scandalum acceptum_. If they speak in jest, he
takes it in good earnest. If they be not saluted, invited, consulted with,
called to counsel, &c., or that any respect, small compliment, or ceremony
be omitted, they think themselves neglected, and contemned; for a time that
tortures them. If two talk together, discourse, whisper, jest, or tell a
tale in general, he thinks presently they mean him, applies all to himself,
_de se putat omnia dici_. Or if they talk with him, he is ready to
misconstrue every word they speak, and interpret it to the worst; he cannot
endure any man to look steadily on him, speak to him almost, laugh, jest,
or be familiar, or hem, or point, cough, or spit, or make a noise
sometimes, &c. [2510]He thinks they laugh or point at him, or do it in
disgrace of him, circumvent him, contemn him; every man looks at him, he is
pale, red, sweats for fear and anger, lest somebody should observe him. He
works upon it, and long after this false conceit of an abuse troubles him.
Montanus _consil. 22._ gives instance in a melancholy Jew, that was
_Iracundior Adria_, so waspish and suspicious, _tam facile iratus_, that no
man could tell how t