other
men's opinion most happy, go, tarry, run, ride, [2501]--_post equitem sedet
atra cura_: they cannot avoid this feral plague, let them come in what
company they will, [2502]_haeret leteri lethalis arundo_, as to a deer that
is struck, whether he run, go, rest with the herd, or alone, this grief
remains: irresolution, inconstancy, vanity of mind, their fear, torture,
care, jealousy, suspicion, &c., continues, and they cannot be relieved. So
[2503]he complained in the poet,

"Domum revertor moestus, atque animo fere
Perturbato, atque incerto prae aegritudine,
Assido, accurrunt servi: succos detrahunt,
Video alios festinare, lectos sternere,
Coenam apparare, pro se quisque sedulo
Faciebant, quo illam mihi lenirent miseriam."

"He came home sorrowful, and troubled in his mind, his servants did all
they possibly could to please him; one pulled off his socks, another made
ready his bed, a third his supper, all did their utmost endeavours to ease
his grief, and exhilarate his person, he was profoundly melancholy, he had
lost his son, _illud angebat_, that was his Cordolium, his pain, his agony
which could not be removed."

_Taedium vitae._] Hence it proceeds many times, that they are weary of
their lives, and feral thoughts to offer violence to their own persons come
into their minds, _taedium vitae_ is a common symptom, _tarda fluunt,
ingrataque tempora_, they are soon tired with all things; they will now
tarry, now be gone; now in bed they will rise, now up, then go to bed, now
pleased, then again displeased; now they like, by and by dislike all, weary
of all, _sequitur nunc vivendi, nunc moriendi cupido_, saith Aurelianus,
_lib. 1. cap. 6_, but most part [2504]_vitam damnant_, discontent,
disquieted, perplexed upon every light, or no occasion, object: often
tempted, I say, to make away themselves: [2505]_Vivere nolunt, mori
nesciunt_: they cannot die, they will not live: they complain, weep,
lament, and think they lead a most miserable life, never was any man so
bad, or so before, every poor man they see is most fortunate in respect of
them, every beggar that comes to the door is happier than they are, they
could be contented to change lives with them, especially if they be alone,
idle, and parted from their ordinary company, molested, displeased, or
provoked: grief, fear, agony, discontent, wearisomeness, laziness,
suspicion, or some such passion forcibly seizeth on th