s, sighs and cries
of complaint, of which, "that he had hurt me... he killed me... I should
die...," were the most frequent interjections. But now, after repeated
attempts, in which he had not made the least impression towards gaining
his point, at least for that time, the pleasure rose so fast upon him,
that he could not check or delay it, and in the vigour and fury
which the approaches of the height of it inspired him, he made one
fierce-thrust, that had almost put me by my guard, and lodged it so far
that I could feel the warm inspersion just within the exterior orifice,
which I had the cruelty not to let him finish there, but threw him out
again, not without a most piercing loud exclamation, as if the pain had
put me beyond all regard of being overheard. It was then easy to observe
that he was more satisfied, more highly pleased with the supposed
motives of his baulk of consummation, than he would have-been at the
full attainment of it. It was on this foot that I solved to myself all
the falsity I employed to procure him that blissful pleasure in it,
which most certainly he would not have tasted in the truth of things.
Eased, however, and relieved by one discharge, he now applied himself
to sooth, encourage, and to put me into humour and patience to bear his
next attempt, which he began to prepare and gather force for, from
all the incentives of the touch and sight which he could think of, by
examining every individual part of my whole body, which he declared
his satisfaction with, in raptures of applause, kisses universally
imprinted, and sparing no part of me, in all the eagerest wantonness
of feeling, seeing, and toying. His vigour, however, did not return so
soon, and I felt him more than once pushing at the door, but so little
in a condition to break in, that I question whether he had the power
to enter, had I held it ever so open; but this he then thought me too
little acquainted with the nature of things, to have any regret or
confusion about, and he-kept fatiguing himself and me for a long time,
before he was in any state to resume his attacks with any prospect of
success and then I breathed him so warmly, and kept him so at bay, that
before he had made any sensible progress in point of penetration, he was
deliciously sweated, and wearied out indeed: so that it was deep in
the morning before he achieved his second let-go, about half way of
entrance, I all the while crying and complaining of his prodigious
vig