ared of his
victorious violence, though I still thought it good policy not to let
him in yet a while. I answered then only to his importunities in sighs
and moans, "that I was so hurt, I could not bear it... I was sure he
had done me a mischief; that he had... he was such a bad man!" At this,
turning down the clothes, and viewing the field of battle by the glimmer
of a dying taper, he saw plainly my thighs, shift, and sheet, all
stained with what he readily took for a virgin effusion, proceeding from
his last half penetration: convinced, and transported at which, nothing
could equal his joy and exultation. The illusion was complete, no other
conception entered his head, but that of his having been at work upon an
unopened mine; which idea, upon so strong an evidence, redoubled at once
his tenderness for me, and his ardour for breaking it wholly up. Kissing
me then with the utmost rapture, he comforted me, and begged my pardon
for the pain he had put me to: observing withal, that it was only a
thing in course; but the worst was certainly past, and that with a
little courage and constancy, I should get it once well over, and never
after experience any thing but the greatest pleasure. By little and
little I suffered myself to be prevailed on, and giving, as it were, up
to the point of him, I made my thighs, insensibly spreading them, yield
him liberty of access, which improving, he got a little within me, when
by a well managed reception I worked the female screw so nicely, that I
kept him from the easy mid-channel direction, and by dexterous wreathing
and contortions, creating an artificial difficulty of entrance, made him
win it inch by inch, with the most laborious struggles, I all the while
sorely complaining: till at length, with might and main, winding his way
in, he got it completely home, and giving my virginity, as he thought,
the coup le grace, furnished me with the cue of setting up a terrible
outcry, whilst he, triumphant and like a cock clapping his wings over
his down-trod mistress, pursued his pleasure: which presently rose, in
virtue of this idea of a complete victory, to a pitch that made me
soon sensible of his melting period; whilst I now lay acting the deep
wounded, breathless, frightened, undone, no longer maid.

You would ask me, perhaps, whether all this time I enjoyed any
perception of pleasure? I assure you, little or none, till just towards
the latter end, a faintish sense of it came on mechanicall