I had
done..., I would get up, so I would...;" and at the same time kept my
thighs so fast locked, that it was not for strength like his to force
them open, or do any good. Finding thus my advantages, and that I had
both my own and his motions at command, the deceiving him came so easy,
that it was perfectly playing upon velvet. In the mean time his machine,
which was one of those sizes that slip in and out without being minded,
kept pretty stiffly bearing against that part, which the shutting my
thighs barred access to; but finding, at length he could do no good by
mere dint of bodily strength, he resorted to entreaties and arguments:
to which I only answered, with a tone of shame and timidity, "that I
was afraid he would kill me... Lord!..., would not be served so... I was
never so used in all my born days..., I wondered he was not ashamed of
himself, so I did...," with such silly infantine moods of repulse
and complaint as I judged best adapted to express the character of
innocence, and affright. Pretending, however, to yield at length to the
vehemence of his insistence, in action and words, I sparing disclosed my
thighs, so that he could just touch the cloven inlet with the tip of his
instrument: but as he fatigued and toiled to get in, a twist of my body,
so as to receive it obliquely, not only thwarted his admission, but
giving a scream, as if he had pierced me to the heart, I shook him off
me, with such violence that he could not with all his might to it, keep
the saddle: vexed indeed at this he seemed, but not in the style of
displeasure with me for my skittishness; on the contrary, I dare swear
he held me the dearer, and hugged himself for the difficulties that even
hurt his instant pleasure. Fired, however, now beyond all bearance of
delay, he remounts, and begged of me to have patience, stroking and
soothing me to it by all the tenderest endearments and protestations
of what he would moreover do for me; at which, feigning to be somewhat
softened, and abating of the anger that I had shewn at his hurting me so
prodigiously, I suffered him to lay my thighs aside, and make way for a
new trial; but I watched the directions and management of his point so
well, that no sooner was the orifice in the least open to it, but I
gave such a timely jerk as seemed to proceed not from the evasion of his
entry, but from the pain his efforts at it put me to: a circumstance too
that I did not fail to accompany with proper gesture