out and would not return till late at night: which I thought no
bad hint; but as it proved, I had nothing of a novice to deal with. The
impressions I had made on him from the discoveries I had betrayed of my
person in the disordered motions of it, during his view of me asleep,
had, as he afterwards told me, so fixed and charmingly prepared
him, that, had I known his dispositions, I had more to hope from his
violence, than to fear from his respect; and even less than the extreme
tenderness which I threw into my voice and eyes, would have served to
encourage him to make the most of the opportunity. Finding then that his
kisses, imprinted on my hand, were taken as tamely as he could wish,
he rose to my lips; and glewing his to them, made me so faint with
overcoming joy and pleasure, that I fell back, and he with me, in
course, on the bed, upon which I had, by insensibly shifting from the
side to near the middle, invitingly, made room for him. He is now lain
down by me, and the minutes being too precious to consume in ultimate
ceremony, or dalliance, my youth proceeds immediately to those
extremities, which all my looks, humming and palpitations, had assured
him he might attempt without the fear of a repulse: those rogues the
men, read us admirably on these occasions. I lay then at length panting
for the imminent attack, with wishes far beyond my fears, and for which
it was scarce possible for a girl, barely thirteen, but tall and well
grown, to have better dispositions. He threw up my petticoat and shift,
whilst my thighs were, by an instinct of nature, unfolded to their best;
and my desires had so thoroughly destroyed all modesty in me, that even
their being now naked and all laid open to him, was part of the prelude
that pleasure deepened my blushes at, more than same. But when his hand,
and touches, naturally attracted to their center, made me feel all their
wantonness and warmth in, and round it, oh! how immensely different a
sense of things, did I perceive there, than when under my own insipid
handling! And now his waistcoat was unbuttoned, and the confinement
of the breeches burst through, when out started to view the amazing,
pleasing object of all my wishes, all my dreams, all my love, the king
member indeed! I gazed at, I devoured it, at length and breadth, with
my eyes intently directed to it, till his; getting upon me, and placing
between my thighs, took from me the enjoyment of its sight, to give me a
far more gr