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, some hesitation when first he had heard that it was to be. He _had_ protested, but now he felt that he should have done more. Soon he had his answer to all his questions. He saw at once that Rachel was no longer the impulsive, nervous girl whom he had always known. She was a girl no longer. Her eyes greeted him now steadily, she seemed taller and her body was in perfect control--very tall and slim and dark, her cheeks pale but shadowed a little with the shadow deepening beneath her eyes. Her mouth, that had always been too large, had had before a delightful quality of uncertainty, so that smiles and frowns and alarms, distress and happiness all hovered near. It was now grave and composed. Her limbs had always moved unsteadily and with the awkward lack of control of a child, now there was no kind of impulse, every movement was considered, and that was the first thing that Christopher saw, that nothing that Rachel now did or said was spontaneous. There was less in her now to remind him of her foreign blood. The flat was comfortable, but more commonplace than it would have been had it been Rachel's only. He kissed her, as he had always done, and he fancied that she clung for a moment to him, as her hands went up to his coat. He settled his big loose body and looked across at her. Christopher was no subtle analyser of other people's emotions. His own feelings were never complicated and he expected life to run on plain and simple lines of likes and dislikes, sorrow, anger, love and hatred. If someone of whom he was fond made a direct appeal to him his simple remedies were often wonderfully useful--he was no fool and he had been brought, during a great number of years, into the most direct relations with men and women, but, if that direct appeal was not made, then he was frightened and baffled. He was frightened of Rachel now; he knew instantly that instead of appealing she would defend herself from him.... Some mysterious conviction seemed to forebode that he would not be able to help her. He was, essentially, of those who, believing in goodness and virtue and the glorious Millennium, are contented, quite simply, with that belief and might, if they stated those simplicities, irritate the scoffers. But he was saved because he made statements on the rarest occasions and lived his life instead. Here, however, was a crisis in his relations with Rachel that no platitudes could satisfy. Did he not touch
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