knew of did we try; never had I had such
continuous fucking. The first thing mother on her return noticed, was
that I was pale, and then great was her astonishment when told by my
old deaf relative, that I had scarcely been out one night after seven
o'clock, and up early most days; so my mother put it down to close
attention to my studies, for I was preparing.

I told Sarah in confidence I had had a virgin, and that there had been
difficulty with her, but none in getting into Sarah. She swore by all
that was solemn that she never had had a man, that although she had been
kissed and tried, no man had put his hands on her naked thighs until I
had. From what she had heard of girl's virginities, she thought she must
have been different from them; she could always easily put a finger up
her cunt, and I believed her. She spent the second time I did it to her.

Talking excitedly about her virginity and her not having bled when first
pierced, she remarked, "Susan told me that when she--" Then she stopped
and turned the conversation, but my curiosity was whetted. I pressed her
to tell more, she got confused, said it was her cousin Susan, would not
go on to say what Susan had said, at last refused to say more. I did
not forget it, and one night as I lay kissing her and fingering her
clitoris, she told me under promise of the greatest secrecy, that her
sister Susan bled when her young man first put it up her, and with this,
that Susan had been seduced and had a child; so her father had sent
her to service in London, and the better to get her taken care of, had
arranged that her sister Sarah should always take service in the same
house with her; hence at my mothers. "And, oh!" she concluded, "if Susan
or father should ever know what I have done, I should die." The family
trusted her.

This accounted for the somewhat forward manner of Susan, for her
exclamation when I got up against her belly on the night of the fair,
"Gracious God, what am I about again!" Sarah believed Susan could have
had no one else but her first sweetheart, and that was more than a year
before. All this set me thinking, and more than once when twiddling
Sarah's cunt, I thought of Susan's with the thicker and darker hair, and
wondered in what other respects it differed from that of her sister.

Now came trouble. Sarah said she was two months gone with child; she had
kept it to herself hoping her courses might come on. She got with child
she thought the first