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Roman Catholics in general. She was not one bit in awe of him, nor felt less hesitation in addressing him, than she would have done in speaking to a merchant's clerk. "I wish to see you, Mr. Duffy," she said, upon entering the little parlor, where she had met him the one time previously. The memory of that day, scarcely ten ago, came over her with such sudden distinctness, that she sank to the floor, beside the sofa upon which she had been about to seat herself, and groaned aloud. "I fear you yield too immoderately to grief," said the priest. "I can never mourn enough for John Temple," said the widow, disconsolately. "Mr. Temple was a worthy man. We have all lost in his death; but we must not forget that he has gained." "I forget everything but that I am wretched--the most wretched creature in existence. I hate equally the light of day and the darkness of night. I would take my own life, only that I have such a horror of death." If the priest felt horror at her expressions, he did not evince it; but he said firmly: "It is very wrong for you, Mrs. Temple, to speak thus. God does not afflict His children willingly, nor--" "I am no child of God," broke in the unhappy woman, hiding her face in the crimson velvet of the lounge, against which she leaned, for she still retained her position upon the floor, in utter disregard of conventionalities. "Though you may not acknowledge God, He is none the less your Lord and Master. Your will opposed to His is as smoking flax. He has seen fit sorely to afflict you, and you are utterly powerless. But, God does everything in wisdom. He has chastened you for your good, if you will but make a wise improvement of this dispensation." "You talk as if you think I am a Christian. But, I tell you I am not, and never was. I know nothing about God. I have never cared anything about Him. I have lived without Him, and as though He did not exist. But, I am left alone now. I have nobody in Heaven or on earth. I am afraid--as if I were on water, and about to sink, or, as if the heavens were to fall and crush me." "Yet God is near you. You have but to stretch forth your hand, and He will support you. Give Him your heart, and He will be a present help in time of trouble." "But, I cannot find Him! And see, you do not tell me truly; for I put forth my hand, and it falls back wearily. I know--I do not expect to see God as I see a person; but they tell about Faith that is as good
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