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to the dust?' He felt that Canon Beecher's eyes never left him for a moment while he spoke. He looked up, and saw in them an intense pleading. There stole over him a desire to yield, to submit himself to this appealing tenderness. He defended himself desperately against his weakness. 'I am not choosing the pleasanter way. It would be easier for me to give up the fight for Ireland, to desert the beaten side, to forget the lost cause.' He turned to Canon Beecher, speaking almost fiercely: 'Do you think it is a small thing for me to surrender your friendship, and perhaps--perhaps to lose Marion? Is there not _some_ of the nobility of sacrifice in refusing to listen to you?' 'I cannot argue with you. No doubt you are cleverer than I am. But I _know_ this--God is love, and only he who dwelleth in love dwelleth in God.' 'But I do love: I love Ireland.' 'Ah yes; but He says, "Love your enemies."' 'Then,' said Hyacinth, 'I will not have Him for my God.' Hardly had he spoken than he started and grew suddenly cold. It was no doubt some trick of memory, but he believed that he heard very faintly from far off a remembered voice: 'Will you be sure to know the good side from the bad, the Captain from the enemy.' They were the last words his father had said to him. They had passed unregarded when they were spoken, but lingered unthought of in some recess of his memory. Now they came on him full of meaning, insistent for an answer. 'You have chosen,' said the Canon. He had chosen. Could he be sure that he had chosen right, that he knew the good side from the bad? 'You have chosen, and I have no more to say. Only, before it becomes impossible for you and me to kneel together, I ask you to let me pray with you once more. You can do this because you still believe He hears us, although you have decided to walk no more with Him.' They knelt together, and Hyacinth, numbly indifferent, felt his hand grasped and held. 'O Christ,' said Canon Beecher, 'this child of Thine has chosen to live by hatred rather than by love. Do Thou therefore remove love from him, lest it prove a hindrance to him on the way on which he goes. Let the memory of the cross be blotted out from his mind, so that he may do successfully that which he desires.' Hyacinth wrenched his hand free from the grasp which held it, and flung himself forward across the table at which they knelt. Except for his sobs and his choking efforts to subdue t
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