he has changed a black sheep into a white
sheep.
And now, behold, he has returned to us, laden with fresh merits.
Like unto the bee of the Arsinoetid, heavy with the nectar of
flowers.
Even as the ram of Nubia, which could hardly bear the weight of its
abundant wool.
Let us celebrate this day by mingling oil with our food."
When they came to the door of the Abbot's cell, they fell on their
knees, and said--
"Let our father bless us, and give each of us a measure of oil to
celebrate his return."
Paul the Fool, who alone had remained standing, asked, "Who is this
man?" and did not recognise Paphnutius. But no one paid any attention
to what he said, as he was known to be devoid of intelligence, though
filled with piety.
The Abbot of Antinoe, locked in his cell, thought--
"I have at last regained the haven of my repose and happiness. I have
returned to my fortress of contentment. But how is it that this roof of
rushes, so dear to me, does not receive me as a friend, and the walls
say not to me, 'Thou art welcome.' Nothing has changed, since my
departure, in this abode I have chosen. There is my table and my bed.
There is the mummy's head which has so often inspired me with salutary
thoughts; and there is the book in which I have so often sought
conceptions of God. And yet nothing that I left is here. The things
appear grievously despoiled of their customary charm, and it seems to
me as though I saw them to-day for the first time. When I look at that
table and couch, that in former days I made with my own hands, that
black, dried head, these rolls of papyrus filled with the sayings of
God, I seem to see the belongings of a dead man. After having known them
all so well, I know them no longer. Alas! since nothing around me has
really changed, it is I who am no longer what I was. I am another. I am
the dead man! What has happened, my God? What has been taken from me?
What is left unto me? And who am I?"
And it especially perplexed him to find, in spite of himself, that his
cell was small, whereas, when viewed by the eye of faith, he ought to
consider it immense, because the infinitude of God began there.
He began to pray, with his face against the ground, and felt a little
happier. He had hardly been an hour in prayer, when a vision of Thais
passed before his eyes. He returned thanks to God--
"Jesus! it is Thou who hast sent her. I acknowledge in that Thy
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