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s_. How often have I told you that?" "They make life possible," Arithelli answered softly. Again the man stared and marvelled. Verily, here was another being who was neither "Becky Sharp" nor "Fatalite." The exultation, the triumph of one loved and desired, was hers for the moment. Who, seeing her now, could have the heart to warn her of inevitable disillusion, the doubts and fears, the clinging and the torments that are the heritage of all womenkind. He, too, had once dreamed foolish dreams. He gripped her by the shoulder and forced her to look at him. "Vardri is your lover? You shall answer me before I leave this room." She did not flinch, or blush, or look away. "I love him." Joy shone in her widely open eyes. Love hovered about her mouth, and the passion that had stirred in him momentarily shrank back ashamed. He pushed back her hair with a rough caress. "It's all right, _ma chere_. You needn't be afraid. I shall not be here to advise you soon, and all I have to say now is, never imagine yourself secure for an instant. Sobrenski is bound to discover this in the course of time, and he has seen this sort of thing before, which will not make him any more merciful. He has watched human nature long enough to know that where there is what you would call love, people want to create, they no longer want to destroy. If, as you say, you have made no plans, then make them. And now you'd better go to bed, unless you want to look more like a ghost than usual to-morrow." As he went out into the moonlit street Emile knew that he had taken the first step on his _Via Crucis_. He did not call it that, for of religion in the orthodox sense he possessed nothing, but he knew that his feet were set upon the path where snow and blood would mingle in his footprints. He was going back to Russia, where death would be a thing to be welcomed and desired. He had listened to the tales of escaped prisoners, and he knew that no words could exaggerate this frozen Hell in which flourished vices unnamable, where men rotted alive, and women strangled themselves with their own hair, or cut their throats with a scrap of glass to escape the brutalities of a gaoler or Cossack guard. He wondered whether it would be Akatui, or the mines, for him. It was no use to try and delude himself that he could escape the police. He had got out of Russia by the skin of his teeth last time, and, even if he managed to get his des
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