Only the source of will-power--the mind. It is the mind
that cannot help me. What am I to do?"
"There is a spiritual strength," said Plank timidly.
"I have never dreamed of denying it," said Siward. "I have tried to find
it through the accepted sources--accepted by me, too. God has not helped
me in the conventional way or through traditional methods; but that has
not inclined me to doubt Him as the tribunal of last resort," he added
hastily. "I don't for a moment waver in faith because I am ignorant
of the proper manner to approach Him. The Arbiter of all knows that I
desire to be decent. He must be aware, too, that all anchors save one
have failed to hold me."
"You mean--Miss Landis?"
"Yes. It may be weakness; it may be to my shame that the cables of pride
and self-respect, even the spiritual respect for the Highest, cannot
hold me when this one anchor holds. All I know is that it holds--so far.
It held me at Shotover; it holds me again, now. And the rocks were close
abeam, Plank--very close--when she spoke to me over the wires, through
the rain, that dark day in March."
He moistened his lips feverishly.
"She said that I might see her. I have waited a long time. I have taken
my fighting chance again and I've won out, so far."
He looked up at Plank, curiously embarrassed:
"Your body is normal; your intelligence wholesome, balanced, sane; and I
want to ask you if you think that perhaps, without understanding how,
I have found in her, or through her, in some way, the spiritual source
that I think might help me to help myself?"
And, as Plank made no reply:
"Or am I talking sentimental cant? Don't answer, if you think that.
I can't trust my own mind any more, anyway; and," with an ugly laugh,
"I'll know it all some day--the sooner the better!"
"Don't say that!" growled Plank. "You were sane a moment ago."
Siward looked up sharply, but the other silenced him with a gesture.
"Wait! You asked me a perfectly sane question--so wholesome, so normal,
that I'm trying to frame an answer worthy of it! I intimated that after
the physical, the mental, the ethical phenomena, there remained always
the spiritual instinct. Like a wireless current, if a man can establish
communication it is well for him, whatever the method. You assented, I
think."
"Yes."
"And you ask me if I believe it possible that she can be the medium?"
"Yes."
Plank said deliberately: "Yes, I do think so."
The silence was again b
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