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Only the source of will-power--the mind. It is the mind that cannot help me. What am I to do?" "There is a spiritual strength," said Plank timidly. "I have never dreamed of denying it," said Siward. "I have tried to find it through the accepted sources--accepted by me, too. God has not helped me in the conventional way or through traditional methods; but that has not inclined me to doubt Him as the tribunal of last resort," he added hastily. "I don't for a moment waver in faith because I am ignorant of the proper manner to approach Him. The Arbiter of all knows that I desire to be decent. He must be aware, too, that all anchors save one have failed to hold me." "You mean--Miss Landis?" "Yes. It may be weakness; it may be to my shame that the cables of pride and self-respect, even the spiritual respect for the Highest, cannot hold me when this one anchor holds. All I know is that it holds--so far. It held me at Shotover; it holds me again, now. And the rocks were close abeam, Plank--very close--when she spoke to me over the wires, through the rain, that dark day in March." He moistened his lips feverishly. "She said that I might see her. I have waited a long time. I have taken my fighting chance again and I've won out, so far." He looked up at Plank, curiously embarrassed: "Your body is normal; your intelligence wholesome, balanced, sane; and I want to ask you if you think that perhaps, without understanding how, I have found in her, or through her, in some way, the spiritual source that I think might help me to help myself?" And, as Plank made no reply: "Or am I talking sentimental cant? Don't answer, if you think that. I can't trust my own mind any more, anyway; and," with an ugly laugh, "I'll know it all some day--the sooner the better!" "Don't say that!" growled Plank. "You were sane a moment ago." Siward looked up sharply, but the other silenced him with a gesture. "Wait! You asked me a perfectly sane question--so wholesome, so normal, that I'm trying to frame an answer worthy of it! I intimated that after the physical, the mental, the ethical phenomena, there remained always the spiritual instinct. Like a wireless current, if a man can establish communication it is well for him, whatever the method. You assented, I think." "Yes." "And you ask me if I believe it possible that she can be the medium?" "Yes." Plank said deliberately: "Yes, I do think so." The silence was again b
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