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nted on anything else
though he had throttled his doubts by covering her throat with diamonds.
Her strangeness, her pallor, her acquiescence, the delicate hint of
depravity in her, the subtle response to all that was worst in him
had attracted him, only to learn, little by little, that the taint of
corruption was only a taint infecting others, not her; that the promise
of evil was only a promise; that he had to deal with a young body but
an old intelligence, and a mind so old that at moments her faded gaze
almost appalled him with its indolent clairvoyance.
Long since he knew, too, that in all the world he could never again
find such a mate for him. This had, unadmitted even to himself, always
remained a hidden secret within this secret man--an unacknowledged,
undrawn-on reserve in case of the failure which he, even in sanguine
moods, knew in his inmost corrupted soul that his quest was doomed to.
And now he had no more need of secrets from himself; now, turning his
gaze inward, he looked upon all with which he had chosen to deceive
himself. And there was nothing left for self-deception.
"If I marry you!" he said calmly "at least I know what I am getting."
"I will marry you, Howard. I've got to marry somebody pretty soon. You
or Captain Voucher."
For an instant a vicious light flashed in his narrowing eyes. She saw it
and shook her head with weary cynicism:
"No, not that. It could not attract me even with you. It is really
vulgar--that arrangement. Noblesse oblige, mon ami. There is a depravity
in marrying you that makes all lesser vices stale as virtues."
He said nothing; she looked at him, lazily amused; then, inattentive,
turned and paced the floor again.
"Shall I see you to-morrow?" he demanded.
"If you wish. Captain Voucher came down on the same train with me. I'll
set him adrift if you like."
"Is he preparing for a declaration?" sneered Quarrier.
"I think so," she said simply.
"Well if he comes to-night after I'm gone, you wait a final word from
me. Do you understand?" he repeated with repressed violence.
"No, Howard. Are you going to propose to me to-morrow?"
"You'll know to-morrow," he retorted angrily. "I tell you to wait. I've
a right to that much consideration anyway."
"Very well, Howard," she said, recognising in him the cowardice which
she had always suspected to be there.
She bade him good night; he touched her hand but made no offer to kiss
her. She laughed a little to h
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