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id not seem to interest her. He felt that it jarred somehow, and that she was wishing him away. "But why," he asked, "should angels paint a marriage? They neither marry----" He stopped, feeling that she might think him flippant if he quoted the text. "Because it is the best thing to paint," she said. "How the best?" "Well, just the best human thing: everyone knows that." "Has her marriage been so gloriously happy?" said Caius to himself as the soft assurance of her tones reached his ears, and for some reason or other he felt desolate, as a soul might upon whom the door of paradise swung shut. Then irritably he said: "_I_ don't know it. Most marriages seem to me----" He stopped, but she had understood. "But if this picture crumbles to pieces, that does not alter the fact that the angels made it lovely." (Her slight accent, because it made the pronunciation of each word more careful, gave her speech a quaint suggestion of instruction that perhaps she did not intend.) "The idea is painted on our hearts in just the same way; it is the best thing we can think of, except God." "Yet," urged Caius, "even if it is the best from our point of view, you will allow that it is written that it is not a heavenly institution. The angels should try to teach us to look at something higher." "The words do not mean that. I don't believe there is anything higher for us. I don't believe people are not married in heaven." With sweet unreason she set aside authority when it clashed with her opinion. To Caius she had never been so attractive as now, when, for the first time to him, she was proving herself of kin to ordinary folk; and yet, so curiously false are our notions of sainthood that she seemed to him the less devout because she proved to be more loving. "You see"--she spoke and paused--"you see, when I was at school in a convent I had a friend. I was perfectly happy when I was with her and she with me; it was a marriage. When we went in the garden or on the sea, we were only happy when we were with each other. That is how I learned early that it is only perfect to be two. Ah, when one knows what it is to be lonely, one learns that that is true; but many people are not given grace to be lonely--they are sufficient to themselves. They say it is enough to worship God; it is a lie. He cannot be pleased; it is selfish even to be content to worship God alone." "The kind of marriage you think of, that perhaps may be made
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