is not much to discuss in perfection."
"She is most lovely--most sweet," said Janetta, warmly. "And yet--the
very things you admire may stand in your way, Wyvis. She is very
innocent of the world. And if you have won her--her--affection before
you have told her your history----"
"You think this wretched first marriage of mine will stand in the way?"
"I do. With Margaret and with her parents."
Wyvis frowned again. "I had better make sure of her--marry her at once,
and tell her afterwards," he said. But perhaps he said it only to see
what Janetta would reply.
"You would not do that, Wyvis?"
"I don't know."
"But you want to be worthy of her?"
"I shall never be that so it's no good trying."
"She would never forgive you if you married her without telling her the
truth."
Wyvis laughed scornfully. "You know nothing about it. A woman will
forgive anything to the man she loves."
"Not a meanness!" said the girl, sharply.
"Yes, meanness, deceit, lies, anything--so long as it was done for her
sake."
"I don't believe that would be the case with Margaret. Once disgust her,
and you lose her love."
"Then she can't have much to give," retorted Wyvis.
Janetta was silent. In her secret heart she did not think that Margaret
_could_ love very deeply--that, indeed, she had not much to give.
"Well, what's the upshot?" said her cousin, at last, in a dogged tone.
"Are you satisfied at last?"
"I shall be better satisfied when you make things plain to the Adairs.
You have no right to win Margaret's heart in this secret way. You blamed
Cuthbert for making love to Nora. It is far worse for you to do it to
Margaret Adair."
"I am so much beneath her, am I not?" said Wyvis, with a sneer. And then
he once more spoke eagerly. "I _am_ beneath her: I am as the dust under
her feet. Don't you think I know that? I'll tell you what, Janetta, when
I first saw her and spoke to her--here, in this room, if you remember--I
thought that she was like a being from another world. I had never seen
anyone like her. She is the fairest, sweetest of women, and I would not
harm her for the world."
"I don't know whether I ought even to listen to you," said Janetta, in a
troubled voice and with averted head. "You know, many people would say
that you were in the wrong altogether--that you were not free----"
"Then they would say a lie! I am legally free, I believe, and morally
free, I am certain. I thank God for it. I have suffered
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