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nt head. "Then we're at a deadlock." She gave him a quick glance. "No; it isn't a deadlock, because--because there's still a way out." He leaned above her, supporting himself with his hand on the table. "And it's a way I shall never take so long as you can't say--what you admitted a little while ago that you couldn't say--" "I can't say it," she murmured, her face still further averted; "but all the same it's cruel of you to make it a condition." He bent lower till his lips almost touched her hair. "It's cruel of you," he whispered, "to put me in the position where I must." The room and the hall behind it were now so dim that Davenant had no difficulty in slipping between the portieres and getting away. XVII "He's going to squeeze me out." This was Davenant's reflection as he walked back, along the Embankment, to Rodney Temple's house. He made it bitterly, in the light of clarified views, as to the ethics of giving and taking benefits. Up to within the last few days the subject had seemed to him a relatively simple one. If you had money, and wished to give it away, you gave it. If you needed it, and were so lucky as to have it offered you, you took it. That was all. That such natural proceedings should create complicated relations and searchings of heart never entered his mind. He could see that they might, however, now that the knowledge was forced upon him. Enlightenment came by the easy process of putting himself in Ashley's place. "I wouldn't take my wife as a kind of free gift from another fellow--I'll be hanged if I would! I'd marry her on my own or not at all." And unless Ashley assumed the responsibilities of his future wife's position, he couldn't marry her "on his own." That much was clear. It was also the most proper thing in the world. It was a right--a privilege. He looked upon it chiefly as a privilege. Ashley would sell his estate, and, having paid him, Davenant, the money he had advanced, would send him about his business. There would be nothing left for him but to disappear. The minute there was no need for him there would be no place for him. He had been no more than the man who holds a horse till the owner comes and rides away. Worse than that reflection was the fear that his intervention had been uncalled for in the first place. The belief that it was imperative had been his sole excuse for forcing himself on people who fought against his aid and professed themselve
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