n, &c., as I have related, represented itself again to me, and I
sat considering what measures I might take to bring myself to such a
state of desolation again, and how I should act to avoid it.

But these things wore off gradually. As to my friend the merchant, he
was gone, and gone irrecoverably, for I durst not follow him to Paris,
for the reasons mentioned above. Again, I was afraid to write to him to
return, lest he should have refused, as I verily believed he would; so
I sat and cried intolerably for some days--nay, I may say for some
weeks; but, I say, it wore off gradually, and as I had a pretty deal of
business for managing my effects, the hurry of that particular part
served to divert my thoughts, and in part to wear out the impressions
which had been made upon my mind.

I had sold my jewels, all but the diamond ring which my gentleman the
jeweller used to wear, and this, at proper times, I wore myself; as also
the diamond necklace which the prince had given me, and a pair of
extraordinary earrings worth about 600 pistoles; the other, which was a
fine casket, he left with me at his going to Versailles, and a small
case with some rubies and emeralds, &c. I say I sold them at the Hague
for 7600 pistoles. I had received all the bills which the merchant had
helped me to at Paris, and with the money I brought with me, they made
up 13,900 pistoles more; so that I had in ready money, and in account in
the bank at Amsterdam, above one-and-twenty thousand pistoles, besides
jewels; and how to get this treasure to England was my next care.

The business I had had now with a great many people for receiving such
large sums and selling jewels of such considerable value gave me
opportunity to know and converse with several of the best merchants of
the place, so that I wanted no direction now how to get my money
remitted to England. Applying, therefore, to several merchants, that I
might neither risk it all on the credit of one merchant, nor suffer any
single man to know the quantity of money I had; I say, applying myself
to several merchants, I got bills of exchange payable in London for all
my money. The first bills I took with me; the second bills I left in
trust (in case of any disaster at sea) in the hands of the first
merchant, him to whom I was recommended by my friend from Paris.

Having thus spent nine months in Holland, refused the best offer ever
woman in my circumstances had, parted unkindly, and indeed barbarou