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mine steadily, like something on fire. And when, presently, I found he was not asleep, I motioned to the night nurse. "The change seemed to come suddenly; she went to find one of the internes; I sat with my hand on his pulse.... There were three physicians there.... Jack was not conscious after midnight." Palla's lips and throat were dry and aching and her voice almost inaudible: "Darling," she whispered, "--darling--if I could give him back to you and take his place!----" Ilse smiled, but her heavy eyelids quivered: "The scheme of things is so miserably patched together.... Except for the indestructible divinity within each one of us, it all would be so hopeless.... I had never been able to imagine Jack and Death together--" She looked up at the clock. "He was alive only an hour ago.... Isn't it strange--" "Oh, Ilse, Ilse! I wish this God who deals out such wickedness and misery had struck me down instead!" Neither seemed to notice the agnostic paradox in this bitter cry wrung from a young girl's grief. Ilse closed her eyes as though to rest them, and sat so, her steady hand on Palla's. And, so resting, said in her unfaltering voice: "Jack, of course, lives.... But it seems a long time to wait to see him." "Jack lives," whispered Palla. "Of course.... Only--it seems so long a time to wait.... I wanted to show him--how kind love has been to us--how still more wonderful love could have been to us ... for I could have borne him many children.... And now I shall bear but one." After a silence, Palla lifted her eyes. In them the shadow of terror still lingered; there was not an atom of colour in her face. * * * * * Ilse slept that night, though Palla scarcely closed her eyes. Dreadful details of the coming day rose up to haunt her--all the ghastly routine necessary before the dead lie finally undisturbed by the stir and movement of many footsteps--the coming and going of the living. * * * * * Because what they called pneumonia was the Black Death of the ancient East, they had warned Ilse to remain aloof from that inert thing that had been her lover. So she did not look upon his face again. There were relatives of sorts at the chapel. None spoke to her. The sunshine on the flower-covered casket was almost spring like. And in the cemetery, too, there was no snow; and, under the dead grass, everywhere
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