strange and remote it seemed! She looked
at the Corot, its sentimentality was an irritation. In the Chippendale
bookcases there were many books she had given him; and the white chimney
piece was covered with her photographs. There he was, a tall, thin man,
elegant and attractive notwithstanding the forty-five years, dressed in
a silk shirt and a black smoking suit. Their eyes met again, she could
see that he was thinking it over; but it was all settled now, neither
could draw back, and the moments were tense and silent; and as if
confronted by some imminent peril, she wondered.
"You arranged that I should leave the stage when I married, and you say
that we are to be married next week. You don't want me to throw up my
engagement at Covent Garden? I should like to play Isolde."
"Of course you must play Isolde; I must hear you sing Isolde."
She felt that she must get up and thank him, she felt that she must be
nice to him; and laying her hand on his shoulder, she said--
"I hope I don't seem ungrateful; you have always been very good to me,
Owen. I hope I shall make a good wife."
"I think I am less changed than you; I don't think you care for me as
you used to."
"Yes, I do, Owen, but I am not always the same. I can't help myself."
He watched her face; she had forgotten him, she was again thinking of
herself. She had tried to be sincere, but again had been mastered by her
mood. No, she did not dislike him, but she wished for an interval, a
temporary separation. It seemed to her that she didn't want to see him
for some weeks, some months, perhaps. If he would consent to such an
alienation, she felt that she would come back fonder of him than ever.
All this did not seem very sane, but she could not think otherwise, and
the desire of departure was violent in her as a nostalgia.
"We have been very fond of each other. I wonder if we shall be as happy
in married life? Do you think we shall?"
"I hope so, Owen, but somehow I don't see myself as Lady Asher."
"You know everyone--Lady Ascott, Lady. Somersdean, they are all your
friends, it will be just the same."
"Yes, it'll be just the same."
He did not catch the significance of the repetition. He was thinking of
the credit she would do him as Lady Asher. He heard his friends
discussing his marriage at the clubs. She was going to Lady Ascott's
ball, and would announce her engagement there. To-morrow everyone would
be talking about it. He would like his engage
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