often burneth, but the flame ascendeth not without
smoke.
And so the desires of some are on fire after heavenly things, and yet
they are not free from the temptation of carnal affection.
Therefore is it not altogether purely for God's honor that they act,
when they so earnestly petition Him.
Such also is oftentimes thy desire, which thou hast profest to be so
importunate.
For that is not pure and perfect which, is alloyed with self-interest.
Ask not that which is pleasant and convenient, but that which is
acceptable to Me and My honor; for if thou judgest rightly, thou
oughtest to prefer and to follow My appointment rather than thine own
desire or any other desirable thing.
I know thy desire, and I have often heard thy groanings.
Thou wouldst wish to be already in the liberty of the glory of the
children of God.
Now doth the eternal dwelling, and the heavenly country full of
festivity, delight thee.
But that hour is not yet come; for there is yet another time, a time
of war, a time of labor and of probation.
Thou desirest to be filled with the Sovereign Good, but thou canst not
at present attain to it.
I am He: wait for Me, saith the Lord, until the kingdom of God come.
Thou hast yet to be tried upon earth and exercised in many things.
Consolation shall sometimes be given thee, but abundant satiety shall
not be granted thee.
Take courage, therefore, and be valiant, as well in doing as in
suffering things repugnant to nature.
Thou must put on the new man, and be changed into another person.
That which thou wouldst not, thou must oftentimes do; and that which
thou wouldst, thou must leave undone.
What pleaseth others shall prosper, what is pleasing to thee shall not
succeed.
What others say shall be harkened to; what thou sayest shall be
reckoned as naught.
Others shall ask, and shall receive; thou shalt ask, and not obtain.
Others shall be great in the esteem of men; about thee nothing shall
be said.
To others this or that shall be committed; but thou shalt be accounted
as of no use.
At this nature will sometimes repine, and it will be a great matter if
thou bear it with silence.
In these, and many such-like things, the faithful servant of the Lord
is wont to be tried how far he can deny and break himself in all
things.
There is scarce anything in which thou standest so much in need of
dying to thyself as in seeing and suffering things that are contrary
to thy wi
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