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ng this last year--by word, precept, and example. Things I held in horror nobody notices enough to condone. Take treachery, for example. The marital variety is all around me. Who cares, or is even curious after an hour's gossip has made it stale news? A divorce here, a divorce there--some slight curiosity to see who the victims may marry next time--that curiosity satisfied--and so is everybody. And they go back to their business of money-getting and money-spending--and that's what my friends have taught me. Can you wonder that my familiarity with it all breeds contempt enough to seek almost any amusement in sheer desperation--as you do?" "I have only one amusement," he said. "What?" "Painting." "And your model," she nodded with a short laugh. "Don't forget her. Your pretences are becoming tiresome, Duane. Your pretty model, Mrs. Dysart, poses less than you do." Another wave of heart-sickness and anger swept over her; she felt the tears burning close to her lids and turned sharply on him: "It's all rotten, I tell you--the whole personnel and routine--these people, and their petty vices and their idleness and their money! I--I do want to keep myself above it--clean of it--but what am I to do? One can't live without friends. If I don't gamble I'm left alone; if I don't flirt I'm isolated. If one stands aloof from everything one's friends go elsewhere. What can I do?" "Make decent friends. I'm going to." He bent forward and struck his knee with his closed fist. "I'm going to," he repeated. "I've waited as long as I can for you to stand by me. I could have even remained among these harmless simians if you had cared for me. You're all the friend I need. But you've become one of them. It isn't in you to take an intelligent interest in me, or in what I care for. I've stood this sort of existence long enough. Now I'm all through with it." She stared. Anger, astonishment, exasperation moved her in turn. Bitterness unlocked her lips. "Are you expecting to take Mrs. Dysart with you to your intellectual solitude?" "I would if I--if we cared for each other," he said, calmly seating himself. She said, revolted: "Can't you even admit that you are in love with her? Must I confess that I could not avoid seeing you with her in her own room--half an hour since? Will _that_ wring the truth out of you?" "Oh, is that what you mean?" he said wearily. "I believe the door was open.... Well, Geraldine, whatever y
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