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e subtle treachery that habit had practised on her--so stealthy is habit, betraying the body unawares. Overwhelmed with consternation, she seated herself to consider the circumstances; little flashes of alarm assisted her. Then a sort of delicate madness took possession of her, deafening her ears to the voice of fear. She refused to be afraid. As she sat there, both hands unconsciously indenting her breast, the clamour and tumult of her senses drowned the voice within. No, she would not be afraid!--though the burning perfume was mounting to her head with every breath and the glow grew steadily in her body, creeping from vein to vein. No, she would not be afraid. It could never happen again. She would be on her guard after this.... Besides, the forgetfulness had been so momentary, the imprudence so very slight ... and it had helped her, too--it was already making her sleepy ... and she had needed something to quiet her--needed sleep.... After a long while she turned languidly and picked up the little crystal flask from the dresser--an antique bit of glass which Rosalie had given her. Dawn whitened the edges of the sky; the birds were becoming very noisy. She lifted the curiously cut relic; an imprisoned fluid glimmered with pale-violet light--some scented French distillation which Rosalie affected because nobody else had ever heard of it--an aromatic, fiery essence, faintly perfumed. For a moment the girl gazed at it curiously. Then, on deliberate impulse, she filled another glass. "One thing is certain," she said to herself; "if I am capable of controlling myself at all, I must begin now. If I should touch this it would be excess.... I would like to, but"--she flung the contents from the window--"I won't. And _that_ is the way I am able to control myself." She smiled, set the glass aside, and raised her eyes to the paling stars. When at last she stretched herself out on the bed, dawn was already lighting the room, but she fell asleep at once. It was a flushed and rather heavy slumber, not perfectly natural; and when Kathleen entered at nine o'clock, followed by Geraldine's maid with the breakfast-tray, the girl still lay with face buried in her hair, breathing deeply and irregularly, her lashes wet with tears. The maid retired; Kathleen bent low over the feverishly parted lips, kissed them, hesitated, drew back sharply, and cast a rapid glance around the room. Then she went over to the dressing-tab
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