t you that sort of--holds me
off, Di.'

"I think then that I began to know my power over you. And how I have
used it, Anthony! I have kept you single and alone all these years,
because something in me would not yield to your kind of wooing.

"If only you could have been a cave man and could have carried me off!
So many women wish that of men, especially proud women. It isn't that
we admire brutality, but we want to have all of our little feminine
doubts and fears overcome by the man's decisive action. And you made
the mistake of waiting patiently, asking me now and then, 'Will you?'
instead of saying, 'You must.'

"Yet while you could not win me, in other ways you dominated me. Do
you remember the holidays when I came home from boarding-school, and
you were interne at a hospital? You asked me to go to the theater with
you, and at the last moment you were called to the operating room to
help one of the surgeons. You telephoned that you'd send a carriage
for me and my chaperon, but that you couldn't go;--and I wouldn't go
either, but stayed at home and sulked, and looked at myself in the
glass, now and then, to mourn over the fact that you couldn't see me
in my pink organdie with the rosebuds.

"But you wouldn't even apologize for what I called your neglect. I
said I should never go with you. You said it wasn't neglect, and that
I should go. And go I did, finally, as meekly as possible, and I wore
the pink organdie and had a lovely time.

"It's the memory of that night when you couldn't fit your plans to
mine which has made me write this letter. When I came home from Harbor
Light I found Bettina waiting up for me, and she broke down as the
depressing realities of your work were forced upon her. I was very
toploftical, Anthony--and was prepared to read her a sermon on the
duties of a doctor's wife, when all at once I had a vision of myself
in that rosebud organdie. I hated your work then, and I felt that you
lacked something of devotion to me, to let it keep you from me.

"But later I felt differently. The world began to call you a great
man--and I began to see with clearer eyes what you were doing for the
world. And so I helped you at Harbor Light, and saw you there at your
best--with your forceful control of all those helpless people, with
your steadiness of hand and eye, a king who ruled by virtue of his
power over life and death.

"It w