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ustin. He is the only thing that has lived on for me. I'm down on my knees with thankfulness that he just exists, even if he can't forgive me--even if he doesn't care for me any more--even if I shouldn't ever see him again--even if he should die--he would be like Mother, he couldn't die, for me. He's there. I know what he is. Somehow everything's all right--because there's Austin." She broke off, smiling palely and quietly at the man beside her. He raised his eyes to hers for an instant and then dropped them. Sylvia went on. "I don't pretend to know all the ins and outs of this Colorado business. It may be that it was quixotic on Austin's part. Maybe it _has_ upset business conditions out there a lot. It's too complicated to be _sure_ about how anything, I suppose, is likely to affect an industrial society. But I'm sure about how it has affected the people who live in the world--it's a great golden deed that has enriched everybody--not just Austin's coal-miners, but everybody who had heard of it. The sky is higher because of it. Everybody has a new conception of the good that's possible. And then for me, it means that a man who sees an obligation nobody else sees and meets it--why, with such a man to help, anybody, even a weak fumbling person like me, can be sure of at least loyally _trying_ to meet the debts life brings. It's awfully hard to know what they are, and to meet them--and it's too horrible if you don't." She stopped, aware that the life of the man beside her was one of the unpaid debts so luridly present to her mind. "Sylvia," said Arnold, hesitating, "Sylvia, all this sounds so--look here, are you sure you're in _love_ with Austin?" She looked at him, her eyes steady as stars. "Aren't there as many ways of being in love, as there are people?" she asked. "I don't know--I don't know if it's what everybody would call being in love--but--" She met his eyes, and unashamed, regally, opened her heart to him with a look. "I can't live without Austin," she said quickly, in a low tone. He looked at her long, and turned away. "Oh yes, you're in love with him, all right!" he murmured finally, "and I don't believe that the Colorado business or any of the rest of what you're saying has much to do with anything. Austin's a live man and you're in love with him; and that's all there is to it. You're lucky!" He took out his handkerchief, and wiped his forehead and the back of his neck. Sylvia, looking at him more
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