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could get through without you, and do it quickly, and could not get through with you"--he paused--"I should leave you behind." "And suppose, when I can walk, I do that myself?" He smiled. "As you please," he said quietly. "I advise you to make your estimate well, however. My hands and strength are assets which you might have trouble in doing without." "And do you estimate the whole of our relationship on a carefully itemized basis of material gain and loss?" "Claire, isn't that your understanding, stated by yourself, of our partnership?" "Yes, but--well, it's hard to estimate human companionship." "I know it." He shifted nearer the fire. "I've tried to estimate yours." "Indeed?" Her voice was full of interest. "I've failed. You are worth a great deal, potentially." "Exactly what do you mean?" "I mean just this"--he stood up suddenly and faced her, his shadow covering her like an ominous cloud--"that as Mrs. Claire Barkley you are worth nothing to me except eyes, and, therefore, your personality and conversation are of value only as time-fillers." "Go on," she said steadily. "But as Claire, the almost starved, ragged human being who is living with me through a prolonged war with death, you are worth everything to me--everything that I value." "But isn't that what I have been from the beginning?" she flashed. He answered slowly. "Yes--in a way." Once more they lapsed into silence. In turn she tried to estimate his worth to her, but failed. She began to recall the men she knew, and concluded that she was without a standard of measurement. One by one she pictured them and cast them aside, as somehow not the scale by which to evaluate this man. At last, she began to think of her husband. It had not occurred to her to think of him in comparison with Lawrence before, and it made her wonder at her doing so now. She fell to dreaming of the man who had been her lover in girlhood, and her husband and dear companion these past six years. He was surely at home, aching, yearning for the little girl he had lost. She could see him sitting before the fireplace in their big living-room, his head on his hands, his tired face in repose, while he gazed into the flames and longed and longed for her. The picture grew in clearness. She saw the joy that would be his when they met again, and she felt around her those dear arms, crushing her against him in a rapture of reunion. In sudden contrast, she was again
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