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low rhythm of her own breathing. It took her a full minute to figure out why, and when she had done so she did not believe it. But the thought persisted, and soon she knew that it was true. The silence was complete because she was deaf. Another thought: The blackness was so deep because she was blind. And still another, this time a questioning one: Why, if she could feel pain in her arms and legs, could she not move them? What strange form of paralysis was this? She fought against the answer, but slowly, inescapably, it formed in her mind. She was not paralyzed at all. She could not move her arms and legs because she had none. The pains she felt were phantom pains, conveyed by the nerve endings without an external stimulus. When this thought penetrated, she fainted. Her mind sought in unconsciousness to get as close to death as it could. * * * * * When she awoke, it was against her will. She sought desperately to close her mind against thought and feeling, just as her eyes and ears were already closed. [Illustration] But thoughts crept in despite her. Why was she alive? Why hadn't she died in the crash? Fred must certainly have been killed. The asteroid had come into view suddenly; there had been no chance of avoiding it. It had been a miracle that she herself had escaped, if escape it could be called--a mere sightless, armless and legless torso, with no means of communication with the outside world, she was more dead than alive. And she could not believe that the miracle had been repeated with Fred. It was better that way. Fred wouldn't have to look at her and shudder--and he wouldn't have to worry about himself, either. He had always been a handsome man, and it would have killed him a second time to find himself maimed and horrible. She must find a way to join him, to kill herself. It would be difficult, no doubt, without arms or legs, without any way of knowing her surroundings; but sooner or later she would think of a way. She had heard somewhere of people strangling themselves by swallowing their own tongues, and the thought cheered her. She could at least try that right now. She could-- No, she couldn't. She hadn't realized it before, but she had no tongue. She didn't black out at this sudden awareness of a new horror, although she desperately wanted to. She thought: _I can make an effort of will, I can force myself to die. Die, you fool, you helples
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