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," I said. "Have you not the whole ocean of human knowledge to dip into?" "Ah! _cui bono?_" he replied. "_Cui bono?_ from you! I never thought I'd hear that fatal word again. _Cui bono?_ from you! _Cui bono?_ from you!" I was never so startled in my life. It was a dread revelation of dissatisfaction and ennui, that might lead no one knew whither. "_Cui bono?_" I said. "Is there any pleasure on this earth comparable to the pleasure of acquiring knowledge? Is there any satisfaction equal to the continuous pursuit of ideas--always coming up to them, and passing them in the insatiable thirst and pursuit? Now, I see clearly that my tastes are not your tastes, and I was wrong in forcing the studies of the classics upon you. But take up philosophy, arrange a _horarium_ for the evenings--so much time for reading, so much for thinking, so much for writing--" "Ah! there you've struck it," he broke in. "If I could only write, I should always have an incentive, and a strong incentive for reading and studying what I read." "And why don't you write?" I repeated. "Paper is cheap; pens and ink don't cost much--" "Write for what, and for whom?" he cried. "Write for the magazines," I said. "Write brisk, crisp, lively articles for our reviews and periodicals; get paid for them; and then the ineffable pleasure of seeing your own work in print!" "And what if they were rejected contumeliously?" "Impossible," I replied; "there is room and to spare for good writers. Why, we are always crying out about the barrenness of our literature!" He had gone over to a portfolio, and had taken out a few rolls of manuscript, to each of which a letter was tagged. He handed them to me without a word. It needed only a glance to see that if the editors had used up all the polite words of the language, nevertheless, "Rejected!" was written in capital letters on every page. I knew well what it meant to a proud, sensitive spirit; and although it was only the usual probation for literary novices, it might have a different effect from successful training in the case of a thoughtful if irritable mind. I pretended to read carefully the two essays, the three short stories, and the half-dozen poems that had come back to the author's hands without proofs, whilst I was rapidly turning over in my mind what I should say or do; for the recollection of my own experience at his age led me to believe that this was a critical moment for him. Happy the st
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