ds.
'Dmitri Nikolaitch!' said Natalya, 'we are losing our time. Remember I
am seeing you for the last time. I came here not to weep and lament--you
see I am not crying--I came for advice.'
'And what advice can I give you, Natalya Alexyevna?'
'What advice? You are a man; I am used to trusting to you, I shall trust
you to the end. Tell me, what are your plans?'
'My plans.... Your mother certainly will turn me out of the house.'
'Perhaps. She told me yesterday that she must break off all acquaintance
with you.... But you do not answer my question?'
'What question?'
'What do you think we must do now?'
'What we must do?' replied Rudin; 'of course submit.'
'Submit,' repeated Natalya slowly, and her lips turned white.
'Submit to destiny,' continued Rudin. 'What is to be done? I know
very well how bitter it is, how painful, how unendurable. But consider
yourself, Natalya Alexyevna; I am poor. It is true I could work; but
even if I were a rich man, could you bear a violent separation from your
family, your mother's anger?... No, Natalya Alexyevna; it is useless
even to think of it. It is clear it was not fated for us to live
together, and the happiness of which I dreamed is not for me!'
All at once Natalya hid her face in her hands and began to weep. Rudin
went up to her.
'Natalya Alexyevna! dear Natalya!' he said with warmth, 'do not cry, for
God's sake, do not torture me, be comforted.'
Natalya raised her head.
'You tell me to be comforted,' she began, and her eyes blazed through
her tears; 'I am not weeping for what you suppose--I am not sad for
that; I am sad because I have been deceived in you.... What! I come to
you for counsel, and at such a moment!--and your first word is, submit!
submit! So this is how you translate your talk of independence, of
sacrifice, which...'
Her voice broke down.
'But, Natalya Alexyevna,' began Rudin in confusion, 'remember--I do not
disown my words--only----'
'You asked me,' she continued with new force, 'what I answered my
mother, when she declared she would sooner agree to my death than my
marriage to you; I answered that I would sooner die than marry any other
man... And you say, "Submit!" It must be that she is right; you must,
through having nothing to do, through being bored, have been playing
with me.'
'I swear to you, Natalya Alexyevna--I assure you,' maintained Rudin.
But she did not listen to him.
'Why did you not stop me? Why did you your
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