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n the open air for a moment. Would you come with me as far as the railway station and back?" "Very well, then, knock on my door when you're ready." Thus the modern soul and I found ourselves together under the stars. "What a night!" she said. "Do you know that poem of Sappho about her hands in the stars... I am curiously sapphic. And this is so remarkable--not only am I sapphic, I find in all the works of all the greatest writers, especially in their unedited letters, some touch, some sign of myself--some resemblance, some part of myself, like a thousand reflections of my own hands in a dark mirror." "But what a bother," said I. "I do not know what you mean by 'bother'; is it rather the curse of my genius..." She paused suddenly, staring at me. "Do you know my tragedy?" she asked. I shook my head. "My tragedy is my mother. Living with her I live with the coffin of my unborn aspirations. You heard that about the safety-pin to-night. It may seem to you a little thing, but it ruined my three first gestures. They were--" "Impaled on a safety-pin," I suggested. "Yes, exactly that. And when we are in Vienna I am the victim of moods, you know. I long to do wild, passionate things. And mamma says, 'Please pour out my mixture first.' Once I remember I flew into a rage and threw a washstand jug out of the window. Do you know what she said? 'Sonia, it is not so much throwing things out of windows, if only you would--'" "Choose something smaller?" said I. "No...'tell me about it beforehand.' Humiliating! And I do not see any possible light out of this darkness." "Why don't you join a touring company and leave your mother in Vienna?" "What! Leave my poor, little, sick, widowed mother in Vienna! Sooner than that I would drown myself. I love my mother as I love nobody else in the world--nobody and nothing! Do you think it is impossible to love one's tragedy? 'Out of my great sorrows I make my little songs,' that is Heine or myself." "Oh, well, that's all right," I said cheerfully. "'But it is not all right!" I suggested we should turn back. We turned. "Sometimes I think the solution lies in marriage," said Fraulein Sonia. "If I find a simple, peaceful man who adores me and will look after mamma--a man who would be for me a pillow--for genius cannot hope to mate--I shall marry him... You know the Herr Professor has paid me very marked attentions." "Oh, Fraulein Sonia," I said, very pleased with
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