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ens! Did you ever love him, I wonder, that you're too proud to ask his forgiveness now--now when you know what you've done?" Diana's lips moved in a pitiful attempt at a smile. "Oh, no," she said, shaking her head. "It's not that. I've . . . no pride . . . left, I think. But I can't be mean--_mean_ enough to crawl back now." She paused, then went on with an inflection of irony in her low, broken voice. "'Whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.' . . . Well, I'm reaping--that's all." Like the keen thrust of a knife came Olga's answer. "And must he, too, reap your sowing? For that's what it amounts to--that Max must suffer for your sin. Oh! He's paid enough for others! . . . Diana"--imploringly--"Max is leaving England to-night. Go back to him now--don't wait until it's too late," "No." Diana spoke in dead, flat tones. "Can't you understand?"--moving her head restlessly. "Do you suppose--even if he forgave me--that he could ever believe in me again? He would never be certain that I really trusted him. He would always feel unsure of me." "If you can think that, then you haven't understood Max--or his love for you," retorted Olga vehemently. "Oh! How can I make you see it? You keep on balancing this against that--what you can give, what Max can believe--weighing out love as though it were sold by the ounce! Max loves you--_loves you_! And there _aren't_ any limitations to love!" She broke off abruptly, her voice shaking. "Can't you believe it?" she added helplessly, after a minute. Diana shook her head. "I think you mean to be kind," she said patiently. "But love is a giving. And I--have nothing to give." "And you're too proud to take." "Yes . . . if you call that pride. I can't take--when I've nothing to give." "Then you don't love! You don't know what it means to love! Diana"--Olga's voice rose in passionate entreaty--"for God's sake go to him! He's suffered so much. Forget what people may think--what even he may think! Throw your pride overboard and remember only that he loves you and has need of you. _Go to him_!" She ceased, and her eyes implored Diana's. No matter what may have been her shortcomings--and they were many, for she was a hard, embittered woman--at least, in her devotion to her brother, Olga Lermontof approached very nearly to the heroic. There was a long silence. At last Diana spoke in low, shaken tones, her head bowed. "I can't!" s
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